Wow, I didn't realize how much I needed that mini-vacay. I didn't switch carriers, like I had hoped. I didn't contact a certain business, like I should've a month ago. I forgot to make plans with my mom, as I told her I would. Ugh. I'm a terrible person. Why can't I get myself to get this stuff done? Do I actually lack the motivation to do these? I know why I need them done. Is it those reasons that's de-motivating me? I have no idea. Am I having a mid-life crisis? Possibly! Ugh. I wish I knew what I was doing. I wish I knew what to do next. *mentally kicks myself* No. I wish I could actually take action. I should be just saying, "Okay, I gotta do this. I should do this. Let's get it done." And not have the mentality of "I'm not in the mood." That's the problem, possibly? I think from now on - once, if not twice a week, if I ever have the mentality of "I should," take that action immediately no matter what mood I'
