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I love writing books and working on them. I'm a messy person, yet I love to organize. (Just not my room.)
I love to read, especially Magic Tree House, Boxcar Children, and A to Z Mysteries Super Edition.
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Thursday, December 14, 2017

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Go Team Missouri! (Special Olympics USA Games 2018)

     I know it's been a long time since I have written a legit blog, let alone a video update from one of my YouTube channels. (I actually found out I could schedule the videos on my gaming channel, Rabbit FunWorld, unable to post a blog via the scheduled uploads.) And I do happen to have a legitimate reason.

     During August or September, my mom and I did a road trip to Connecticut, New York, and then St. Louis. My second sister's second travel for her travel nursing position chose a quaint city on the east coast, coincidentally near the ocean. (I managed to swim in the Atlantic Ocean for at least half an hour, almost got used to the cold water, and swam like a mermaid. Mermaid dream almost complete!)

     Before the road trip, I found out from the central PR team of Special Olympics Missouri that a position opened up. And it's for an athlete only. YES! I applied immediately, despite the fact I might have to do an interview during the road trip.

     There were two rounds of the application process. I managed to get through both. Seeing as I knew some of the people in this interview, which happened the day I returned from the trip, I had a good feeling about it. (I did, however, learn that one of my athlete friends applied as well.) I don't remember all the details, but I believe that towards the end of the interview, I was asked how I would feel of taking the position. Basically, they were saying, "Congratulations. You have the job."

     I don't mean to brag, but... SUCK IT, SOMO FRIENDS! I got the job! 😄 Ever since then, I've been assigned a few things to do. I made sure to step up when it seemed like the PR team needed help. A family meeting occurred for all the athletes, coaches, Unified Partners, and staff that made it to Team Missouri for the USA Games 2018. Not only did I help the PR team with whatever they needed, I also had to attend a few things required for athletes. The same thing happened last week when we had a training weekend.

     I still hesitate at times, on whether I should be doing something, or confused, or even just speaking my thoughts. I guess I still have some of that shyness when I first entered Special Olympics a little over ten years ago. At least I'm being brave in the attempt of this difficult, overwhelming, amazing position. I somewhat look forward to all the other challenges ahead. Since I am the first athlete to do this, either in Missouri or USA, I intend to make the first footsteps for those to follow.

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Thursday, November 16, 2017

24 | Time To Find Prankster Lukas | Let's Play 14

Nooo! He can't be missing! I actually like that little #prankster devil. He's so comical and cute.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Fire Has Its Beauties And Dangers (Before The Storm Episode 2 P3)

Uh oh. Can't. Stop. Impulse to. Sing. ♫ Puff the Manic Dragon! Puff, Puff, Huff Huff! ♫ #dragonfire

Sunday, October 29, 2017

A Bit Of An Open World (The Legacy #1)

Random slurs, weird songs, unexpected reactions. This is definitely the craziest recording I've done. #sleepy

Can You Stay Alive? (An Eternal Secret) Happy Halloween!

#TriviaTime! What gives off the scent of metal and rotten food? That's what they rifled through.

Sunday, September 24, 2017

Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Witch, How I Wonder - Um, What? (Return of the ...

No! Not again! And this time, it's her baby daughter. Dude, that's crossing the line. #evilwitch #karma

Saturday, September 23, 2017

How DOES The Stock Market Work? (Ski Jump #6)

I don't think I can do this. #stockmarket is not my area of expertise. Go to someone else. lol

Thursday, September 21, 2017

23 | I Know Your Secret, Yumi | Let's Play 12

♫ Now is the time to seize the ghost. Don't be afraid and don't scream. Nothing can break you; no one can make ♪ - uh oh...

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

It's Real! RPG IS ALIVE!! (Before The Storm Episode 1 P2)

Thank you to @SquareEnix for making that RPG battle happen on Twitter. That was so rad. #BeforeTheStorm

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

23 | Learning Hiragana Japanese | Let's Play 11

Takana Japanese, Hiragana Japanese. Seems it's similar to Chinese, Cantonese or Mandarin. #languagesarefun

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Can I Go To Bed Now? I'm Depleted!

Do you know how much I wish I could do stuff like them? #ILoveMyFamily No one will ever beat them.

Friday, September 15, 2017

The Things We Used To Share - TS - Karaoke Cover

Thomas Sanders, you left a mark on my heart. For that, I will always be grateful. #WhyIAmAFander #criticismplease

Thursday, September 14, 2017

23 | Getting The Pachinko Egg And Rock Garden | Let's Play 10

Yep. I got so frustrated; I cursed. Yay #censorship! Lol. What I get for trying this half-awake. xD

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

You Brought It Back? YES!! (Before the Storm Episode 1 P1)

There must have been a huge reaction to him. No way would Square Enix put him in if it didn't. #HawtDawgMan

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

23 | I Can't Remember! WAAAA!! | Let's Play 9

You gotta have a good belief, and a good mind. Ya dig? #ghostofbadspelling

Sunday, September 10, 2017

♫ Dancer Statue Winds Up In My Head ♪ (A Witch's Curse #4)

♫ And it's not gonna be a long, long time. Oh yes, yes, yes. Rocket man! ♫ Rocket man!.

Thursday, August 24, 2017

23 | Do You Wanna Date My Avatar? | Let's Play 8

Welp. That's my last video for the month. Enjoy the extra long episodes, my #bunnies.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

One Of Those Backwards Days (Life Is Strange #5.2)

Um... an alternate reality is bad enough. Do we really need false and backwards? Yikes. #LifeisStrange

I Grovel At Your Feet (Life Is Strange #5.1)

Madam, I gravel at your feet. Or is it grovel? xD #LionKing

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

23 | When I Say "Monster," You Say "Sudoku" | Let's Play 7

I can't believe I finished on the first try! That rarely happens to me.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

I Think We're The Evil Ones! (A Witch's Curse #3)

What if the sister witch is right, and we're the evil ones?

Friday, August 18, 2017

Prepare For A Week Of Seeing Double

Can you tell how excited I am about everything? Bring up the #hype! A bunch of turns and surprises your way!

Thursday, August 17, 2017

23 | You Really Get On My Nerves | Let's Play 6

Just remember: don't prank someone unless you know the full mechanics of the prank. #checkyoself

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Choosing The Traveled Road (Life Is Strange #4.2)

Nothing's more ripe than a road less traveled. Or whatever. #RobertFrost says it better. lol

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

23 | You Backburner That Curiosity Or Else | Let's Play 5

It's a bird. It's a fox. It's a ghost! No, it's -- shadow puppets? Boo!

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Fee Phi Foe Fum! I Smell Concrete! (A Witch's Curse #2)

Whoever built this giant knew what they were doing. Right down to the, um, well...

Thursday, August 10, 2017

23 | Finding A Good Haunted Ryokan | Let's Play 4

Now that we've seen it, we need to prove it's either fake or real. Who's up for it? #ghosthunting

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Invasion Of Privacy, Miss Snoopy! (Life Is Strange #4.1)

Welp. We got a mystery to solve. Just not sure where it's leading us. Gulp! #LifeisStrange

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

23 | Saving A Portrait's Life | Let's Play 3

Nice job, Her Interactive. Been a long time since there was a scary game for Halloween lovers.

Sunday, August 6, 2017

I Missed A Witch? What! (A Witch's Curse #1)

I can't believe that's an actual thing! *Pauses.* Do you think she saw me?

Thursday, August 3, 2017

23 | Learning The Sudoku Curve | Let's Play 2

Eavesdropping is so much fun. Especially when it twists the mysterious plot.

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

An Out Of Control Chloe (Life Is Strange #3.2)

I have a bad feeling about this. Chloe is not paying attention to what she's doing to herself. #badattitude

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

23 | Mysteries Never Take A Break | Let's Play 1

I don't think we need to worry about #NancyDrew. This family needs help. Yikes!

Sunday, July 30, 2017

Proving Sarah's Worth - And Missing Pages (Haunted Past #4)

And it just ends abruptly. Something about this is not right. I want/need more! #GogiiGames

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Remastered | Nancy's Lost Rap Song | Let's Play 4

Today's video is a little late. I wanted to make sure the song and and the extra surprise fit into it.

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

♫ Splish Splash I Was Taken A Chlorine Bath ♫ (Life is Strange #3.1)

♪ In the arms of an Angel, I will --♫ Dang it, that's what I should've used when she jumped! #LifeisStrange

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Remastered | Being Threatened Means The Right Direction | Let's Play 3

#NancyDrew rarely backs down. She would never put her life on the line unless it's important. Right?

Sunday, July 23, 2017

I Love To Swing From The Chandelier (Haunted Past #3)

That song is by Sia, right? Or is it someone else? Gosh dang it! Now I need to figure it out. LOL! #chandelier

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Remastered | Why Break Into A Pharmacy? | Let's Play 2

Yikes! Whoever broke into that pharmacy seriously wants to buff up.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

I Embrace All The Strikes! (Life is Strange #2.2)

Some of my best edits yet. Yay! I'm so proud of myself. Lol.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Remastered | Is He Seriously For Real? | Let's Play 1

This can't be right. He's number one on my suspect list. Right?

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Who The Heck Is She? ( Haunted Past #2)

Okay, now we have a villain. Who is this broad anyways? #ghosthistory

Thursday, July 13, 2017

22 Faster Than The Villain Gettin Stung By Cow Let's Play 12

These western stereotypes are a bit much. I could use a break. Wait, I didn't mean break. No!

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

I Pledge Allegiance To Max (Life Is Strange #2.1)

For which she stands. One teenager as God, indivisible, with time powers and justice for all! #LifeisStrange

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

22 | Everything Goes South From Here | Let's Play 11

Geez! Most of it looks like #Greek to me. When will @HerInteractive learn that not everyone is smart? Lol.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Whispered Legends - Tales of Middleport Full Play

I am super excited about this happening. Make it a date, everyone! July 21st, 7pm central standard time. I will live stream a Gogii Game I forgot to include. ^_^

After - What? - 10, 15 Years? Why Now? (Haunted Past #1)

What? That intro! Did we just see how her mother died?

Friday, July 7, 2017

Asstral Projectin' Some Booty, Doe (Life Is Strange #1.2)

Curiosity killed the cat. Time travel brought it back. Uh, I think.

Thursday, July 6, 2017

22 | World's Dumbest and Tired Electrician | Let's Play 10

Perhaps it's time to lay these tricks to rest. Oops, not rest. Not rest! #sabotage

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Sunday, July 2, 2017

♫ Just A Spoonful of ♪ Trickery Takes ♪ The Villain Down ♫ (Vault Cracke...

♪ And we'll never be plumbers! ♫ Uh, um, I mean... well...

Thursday, June 29, 2017

22 | Musophobia (Fear of Rodents) Is Real | Let's Play 8

Down the cabinet, across the feet, scamper the keyboard, and listen in. That's fear you're hearing.

Look At The Pretty - Uh Oh! (Life Is Strange #1.1)

It's not like the whole thing is a butterfly effect, right?  (Finally! I can't believe how late it is.)

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

22 | Something More Sinister Is At Work | Let's Play 7

So what's worse? Running out of coolant or losing control of the wheel?

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Is This A Stereotypical Cliche Plot? (Vault Cracker #6)

Yeah, I probably knew this since the beginning. But seriously. I don't see it.

Friday, June 23, 2017

Christmas Time in June, Not July (Vine Compilation #9)

♪ Return to me! ♫ Oh my dear, I'm so lonely. ♪

Thursday, June 22, 2017

22 | Who Is Brooke? | Let's Play 6

We actual get to meet the competition! Or rather... eavesdrop on them. Yikes.

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Is It Really Time To Say Goodbye? | Firefly LootCrate (River Tam/Miranda)

Yes, it is. My subscription to Firefly LootCrate is officially cancelled. Hopefully, it'll return.


Tuesday, June 20, 2017

22 | Scoring The Big Box at $99.90 | Let's Play 5

Oh, the references! I'm glad I found the audio. Couldn't find the original video or episode. #dangitbobby

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Convinced Enough To Be Undercover (Vault Cracker #5)

If you were undercover, what or who would you want to be?

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Keep Calm And ♪ Carry On, Carry On ♫

Still 200+ subscribers strong. I love it! Thanks, everyone.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

22 | Cheating The System For Pennies? | Let's Play 4

The music is annoying, but dang, that mini game is fun. I could play Land Rush all day.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Why Do I Do This To You Bunnies? | Dreamfall Chapters (Chapter 1 P2)

I don't want to put you Bunnies through this, or myself. It's time to admit it sooner than later. I almost want to delete the videos. Only because I know I won't be playing Dreamfall Chapters until I get a better hard drive. Unlisted will have to do.

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

22 | Trust Goes Both Ways! | Let's Play 3

Maybe they could devise a way where they don't have to, you know, sabotage.

Sunday, June 11, 2017

♫ Never Let The Dog ♪ Bite The Dust ♫ (Vault Cracker #4)

Never have I ever been ferociously bitten by a dog. Only angry barks and accidental bites. Seriously.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

22 | Getting To Know The Crew | Let's Play 2

Our first meeting with him and he's already losing it. Geez. Calm down, boss!

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

Beautiful, Funereal Lag Central (Chapter 1 P1)

You'd think I would be patient with this much lag. Still, the game is gorgeous!

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Blogs Can Be Noticed! YES!

Okay, so Monday evening, one of my Facebook friends was asking "for a friend" how someone would dispose of a body. A dead body. Yep.

Not surprisingly, many people gave plenty of suggestions, myself included. Because who hasn't thought of how to murder your crazy ex-boyfriend and get away with it? LOL! Not me. Because I'm not crazy. I'm a writer. A soon to be published author!

Today, they then posted this: Not sure how to feel. So many friends gave suggestions on how to dispose of a body. Yeah, that's because you and most of your friends are authors. Some of them, even me, even stated that we're writers. One person actually linked a pretty cool blog, one she wrote herself, called 13 Ways Writers Are Mistaken For Serial Killers.

I decided to check it out. It is incredibly accurate! I remember going to a few local critique meetings for local authors. They explained how their husbands say "Why would you think that?" as they type up on Google search: How to hack a body into 30 pieces? Or something like that. Get used to it. You're an author! Only guess what? You're on a government watch list now.

Yeah, I wouldn't be surprised if I'm on that list. I've looked up some pretty weird stuff, even porn. I admit it. I'm into that stuff, but more on erotic stories than actual videos. Lately, though, I've noticed that even the audio turns me on. How bout dat?

Back to Kristen Lamb's blog! I think the points that get me the most are #8 and #12. And here's why.

#8 Writers Plan Their Kills Methodically
We writers/authors take our books pretty seriously. We know there won't be much of an audience if there's no plot or a pace to the way things are going. A book is much like a movie. If neither are in it, there's no direction. No point to the book. Why are you writing?!

#12 Writers Are Also Sadists
Now give me just a moment while I look up the word Sadist. Okay, yep, I'm definitely a Sadist. LOL! That explains why this point gets to me so well. It's the way Kristen writes it as well. So perfect that I can't just paraphrase it.
Excellent fiction is the path of greatest resistance which means good writers are all about exacting pain. Doling it out bit by bit. Upping the heat and making that victim and all who love him squirm, then panic, then question the very meaning of their existence. We push our victims until just before that spark of hope in their eyes extinguishes completely.
And then we give them a bone and rescue them so there. We aren’t completely heartless. Sheesh, these people are imaginary. Why so freaked out?
Thank you! Now I can't stop thinking of an unpublished work I did: Trouble in the Making. I had the villain put the MC in such excruciating, depressing, psychological pain. I loved every bit of it! And remember how the villain in almost every book, every movie, every TV show, gets caught? Not in this one, baby! The MC is placed in - well, maybe I shouldn't spoil it too much.

But yes. To make my point, blogs can be noticed when they're placed in correct posts. For instance, if someone worries about their friends putting down suggestions on how to dispose of a dead body, don't put too much stress on it. Yes, my friend, we're all killers. We just hide the bodies in our words, not our backyards.

22 | A Lag In The Mouth | Let's Play 1

When you see it coming, you don't run. At least not immediately. You just stand there. Either in fear or in awe.

Sunday, June 4, 2017

Finding A Needle In A Senator's Yacht Vault Cracker 3

If only there was a way to fade away the characters... oh, wait! I got it!

Friday, June 2, 2017

When Did Nancy Get Burgled? (Ski Jump Part 2)

I finally get to talk about one of my favorite FB friends, who happens to be an author AND a book cover design. ^_^

Thursday, June 1, 2017

21 | An Essay For Pen To Paper Award | Let's Play 10

I am super late for today's video. It's my fault. I stayed up way too late last night. I overslept by six hours. It took me two and a half hours to edit, render, and upload the video.

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Back At It Again! (911 Operator #2)

This time, instead of touring my hometown, we follow the career path. Let's see how I can screw this one up! LOL!

Tuesday, May 30, 2017

21 | Mapping Out The Classroom And The Twins | Let's Play 9

Wait, there's TWO of her? #legasp #twinsies It's inconceivable!

Sunday, May 28, 2017

Check Your Insanity At The First Pier (Vault Cracker #2)

Insanity asylum for one, please! Seriously. Cause there's no better place for me. LOL!

Thursday, May 25, 2017

21 | Think Like A Squirrel; BE The Squirrel! | Let's Play 8

I love Casper, seriously. But he steals WAY too much. Get back here!

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Awww, Must We Say Goodbye? (Stardew Valley #30)

Don't worry, my Bunnies! Stardew Valley will be back someday. It just might be a pretty long time. I'll be playing more recent games.

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

21 | The Fine Dining of Cutlery | Let's Play 7

Yeah, so I normally try to upload by 3pm central. It didn't work out today. I lost track of time.

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Kidnapping Is Great Leverage... Or Is It? (Vault Cracker #1)

"A mom and son entering the hometown. Psych!  She's not normal at all, but a criminal mastermind!" Smooth move, Gogii Games. LOL!

Thursday, May 18, 2017

21 | Betrayed By An Ignoramus? | Let's Play 6

It would help if Casper the squirrel didn't steal everything shiny. >.>

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Voice Acting Is So Much Fun (Stardew Valley #29)

Perhaps there's something in the water in the apartment complex. Cause I can't seem to stop singing anymore. xD

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

21 | Mapping Out The Valedictorian | Let's Play 5

I've been noticing these bubbles at the top left corner when watching YouTube videos. I wonder if those show up when my ad-covered, non-earning videos are playing. Hmm...

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Pursuit of Happiness (HappyVille: Quest for Utopia)

Well, this definitely puts Gogii Games in a weird spot. I don't think they fully tested this game.

Thursday, May 11, 2017

21 | Potential Candidate For A Villain | Let's Play 4

You think my roller coaster is just as bad? Geez! I never wanna be Leela's victim, or the true villain's victim.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

The New Heavy Rain Shoutout (Stardew Valley #28)

I love making fun of other games, especially those I haven't played before. xD It's fun!

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

21 | Taking Valedictorian Pictures | Let's Play 3

I've been getting rather sleepy lately. Probably because my way of getting ready for bed has changed.

I haven't had a job since February, Bunnies and Hopefuls! (Bunnies for my gaming fan base, and Hopefuls for my book reading fan base.)

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Working On A Low And Tight Budget

Sorry I'm late on this. The whole process of the editing and uploading took longer than I expected.

Thursday, May 4, 2017

21 | Leave The Easter Egg Alone! | Let's Play 2

Waverly is one of my favorites from the Nancy Drew games. I hope you like it!

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

We Didn't Start The Fire 911 Operator 1

Okay, this is way too cool. ^_^ I'm glad I bought this game. So much better than Kindergarten.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

21 | Where The Popularity Runs The World | Let's Play 1

Oh boy! This is gonna be tricky. Can the Val Can villain be defeated?

Sunday, April 30, 2017

Infected | The Only Reason This Makes Sense! | Let's Play 7

Tonight will be the last night Infected: The Twin Vaccine will ever be on my channel. :( It's such a great game. I hope they make a sequel. There are a few things that don't make sense.

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Something Old, Something New (Fallout Shelter)

Well, well, well. Looks like I started a newly PC released game. ^_^ Care to check it out?

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Raving Over A Texting App (Stardew Valley #27)

I don't mean to publicize companies! It just... randomly happens sometimes. Lol.

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

BioShock | Killing Off A Family? Check √ | Let's Play 15

This will be the last BioShock for a good while. I miss playing Nancy Drew and need to get that collection done before Her Interactive gives the release date on the new game.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

♪ "It Only Feels Like" I'm Losing Money ♫ (Stardew Valley #26)

So I uploaded this pretty early. I thought I'd be hanging out with my new friend a lot longer. She wanted to teach my first cousin once removed how to drive, though. (She's actually a family friend, and possibly a future first cousin-in-law.) And I got pretty exhausted and wanted to wash off the forest debri.

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Infected | I'm A Kid At Heart | Let's Play 5

Due to Easter celebrations with my family, I uploaded my video super early. See, if I had 100 subscribers. I wouldn't be worried about these kind of situations. Lol. Happy Un-Easter, everyone! (For those of you who don't celebrate it, I mean.)

Infected | I'm A Kid At Heart | Let's Play 5

Due to Easter celebrations with my family, I uploaded my video super early. See, if I had 100 subscribers. I wouldn't be worried about these kind of situations. Lol. Happy Un-Easter, everyone! (For those of you who don't celebrate it, I mean.)

Thursday, April 13, 2017

BioShock | My Dear Miss Duchesne | Let's Play 12

I need to start uploading videos at a reasonable. This morning, I realized nobody's watching cause I'm uploading them way too early. >.> Geez!

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Infected | From The Windooow To The Wall | Let's Play 4

Yeah, I couldn't help myself. Songs keep earworming. xD

Thursday, April 6, 2017

BioShock | I'm Not A Bible Thumper | Let's Play 10

I can never seem to move out of the way. I know this'll backfire on me someday. lol

Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Greedy Is Unbecoming (Stardew Valley #24)

And today, we experience my first death in Stardew Valley. >.> Let's hope that doesn't happen again. Lol.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

BioShock | Marketing The Perfect Fishery | Let's Play 9

Now that I'm back to posting regular blogs, at least I hope, it's about time I start sharing my two YouTube channels on here. I know I still have a lot to work on in becoming a good YT gamer, but I'm improving.

Monday, April 3, 2017

Communication Is ALWAYS Key

I know. I haven't posted a blog since November. Due to new updates/upgrades on BlogTalkRadio, I was forced to quit my radio show. It still feels weird to not be hosting segments anymore, but at least I got/get to use my free time better. I don't know when it will happen. I have a good feeling, though, that by the end of the year, I will be uploading podcasts of my radio show onto my main YouTube channel.

That's right! I don't know if I told you this. I now have TWO YouTube channels. Wait, wait, wait. Stop it, Rabbit. You did not start this blog to talk about your social platforms. Take a breath, let it out, and start over.

Hi, my Hopefuls! :) I know it's been a long time. A lot has happened. I finally quit my job and am searching for a better one. Or at least - a job where teamwork and communication is stronger than my last job. Geez! Anyways...

In December, I had my first argument with my best friend. Well, our first argument about our relationship, I should say. I'm not going into details, but we ended up agreeing to downgrade as friends. It still feels wrong to call her a "friend." She's been my best friend since college, and she always will be.

Today, around 4am, she messaged me about her side of the relationship. For about thirty minutes, I seriously thought she was leaving me. She didn't say she wanted to part, but I could somehow see it in the wording. I cried. For a good amount, I cried. It made me realize how important she is in my life, and how drastic my life would seriously change if she left. I then poured my heart out to her. I confessed how much she means to me. That the problems and worries she has of her side of the relationship she doesn't need to work on by herself.

My college best friend has changed so much. She noticed a lot of her flaws over the years. She tries so hard to fix them and improve herself. Many times, I thought she was avoiding me. (She actually confirmed that in the convo.) And ever since our argument, it felt like she didn't want me at all. Far from it!

It turned out she was protecting me from the mistakes she thought I was making. Perhaps so, but I've tried so hard to hang out with her. I learned myself that I build walls between the people I like. But she is someone I love! If I ever did that, I would lose the last person I confess my secrets. I would lose the only person outside of my family I vent to. After our conversation, I realized we mended our broken hearts of each other. It makes me so happy! So here, on this blog, I will confess something, and I hope she sees it. Cause this secret is of her.

Whether it be friends, best friends, girlfriends, or lovers, I love you, my sweet, beautiful college buddy, forever and ever. And that will never change!
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